In less than 2 days' time 2009 will officially come to an end. It’s a bittersweet kinda thing for me I guess? To be honest, I don’t know if this has been a good year, but I do know that I learned quite a lot. I think I’ve grown much more as a person in a way.

2009 didn’t start off very well for me. My first relationship ended early this year. My O level results were disappointing. But it’s okay. Because I’m thankful. I’m thankful that it ended. The two of us used to love each other, but people change and that’s a known fact. He wasn’t the guy that I fell in love with 5 years ago, so why hold onto something that will bring nothing but misery to the both of us? Then, I jumped into another relationship shortly after my first one ended, a rebound relationship you would call it. It didn’t work out and I really think that we are better off as friends. =] I know the two of you are better off now.

I started working part time at Chiku and that’s where I met people like Jasmine and Meiyan. Both whom I consider as friends I can confide in. Did I also mention that they happen to be two really appealing girls? Haha. :P Jas and I signed up for Hip Hop lessons together and whoosh, now we even got our own dance crew. All I can say is wow. Made many new friends from O school too. (Y)

As for my O level results, it was somewhat expected. I sort of saw it coming already, because frankly speaking I didn’t put in my 100%. But, I’m grateful for getting that crappy 20 points. And getting into Republic Polytechnic. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have met such awesome friends. First semester of school was really enjoyable thanks to W46H and FBFG. I remember the Malaysia trip to Irene’s house during the term break.. awesome ttm. I’ll never forget about it.. all those nights we stayed up doing nonsensical stuff. Haha. There are many times that we had conflicts among us, but we managed to clear it up. So I guess it’s all good? Thanks for the wonderful memories. You guys know who you are. ;)

Moving on to Semester Two. I thought that no class will ever beat W46H but E37Q proved me wrong. I have to admit, I felt kinda awkward in my new class on the first few days. But as time slowly pass by, we all started to open up and now we’re like a family. And I met some really awesome people there. Right kkb? Haha. :D It’s a little depressing to think that we only have 5 weeks left with each other before another school year begins though. Sigh. I’m so gonna cherish every moment. =]

Also, I am extremely glad that my secondary school besties and I are still as close. Shujun, Zishan, Ziling and Jodi. With the occasional addition of Amanda and Andrea. And not forgetting NOK. I miss you so much. Better come back and visit us soon kay! You girls do know that I’ll be right here for all of you no matter what right? =] And my best friend of 10 years. Yup I’m referring to you Lim Hui Yun. Haha. Even though we went to different schools, I’m really happy that we kept in touch all these while. Thanks for all the little surprises you gave. Thank you for listening to all my problems and the awesome advices that you never fail to give each time. <3

Now that I typed everything out, 2009 seems to be a pretty good year for me. But this year seems really short though. I'm actually quite looking forward to 2010.

Nothing good can come from rehashing past, so I’m gonna leave all the bad stuff behind. I guess this is why they say everything happens for a reason. And I really do think that maybe God has bigger plans for me than I have for myself. :D

Enjoy the last few moments with your loved ones. :)

Woke up at 10am this morning. I realized it's really tough waking kkb up sia. Haha kidding. Hmm then I went to prepare and headed to cwp to have lunch with kkb. Afterwards we went for the OH briefing in school and guess what? It only lasted for like around 40 minutes. In the email they stated that briefing was 3 hours long. Kuku ttm. Then Myzan started singing the CCB song. LOL ttm. Haha. And what's even more surprising was that I was chosen as a SL together with Jerome, Myzan and Nat(?). Like.. err.. you know. =/

After the briefing, we(me, Lini, Jerome, Nat, Seanie, Myzan and Stella) went off to the library to pass time because it was still early. We played charades and it was super comical. Jerome and Myzan's actions ah, damn epic I tell you. (Y). Haha. Then around 5 plus we left and walked over to CWP to meet the rest.

Class outing was fun. It wasn't really a class outing considering the fact that only 8 of us turned up(me, Lini, Jerome, Nat, Myzan, Daren, Coreen and Sche). We went to Lau Pasat to have our dinner and sauntered around Esplanade. We sat down at the outdoor theatre and talked. It was (Y). First impressions of each other followed by truth or dare. Coreen kept reminding us about the time cuz she was damn worried that we might miss the last bus. Damn funny. Haha. Lini and Sche kissed me on the cheeks. (It was a dare though). Thank you both. :P. Haha. Eh guys remember your dares when school reopens ah.

Who is this fat boy? Hmm I wonder.
















Once again, I had a really awesome day thanks to you guys. <3

Ps LIM HUI YUN - you are the bestest bestfriend, ever. <3 you ttm!

Mmhmm.

Merry X'mas Everyone!

Went for x'mas countdown with Jas, Jon, Darren and DJ just now. It was damn fun. (Y) Darren and DJ were like running around and spraying innocent passerbys. Haha. The funny thing is, they got caught by the policemen for spraying on people and they took down DJ's particulars. Haha that was super kuku. Anyway, we had foams all over us too. =D We yelled Merry Christmas to random people and the response was super hilarious. Haha.

Ho ho ho.

Had such a great time with my besties today! (Y)

We were supposed to meet up at 2pm, but all of us turned up late again as usual. And surprisingly I was the earliest. W00t? Haha. But when I called Zishan, she told me that Jodi wants to go to FEP. So I walked over and we shopped around while waiting for Shujun to arrive. Saw Justin there, but he seemed pretty reluctant to say Hi when I called out his name. Lol I wonder why. Hmm.

So anyways, we walked around looking for Jodi’s Christmas present for her friends. We managed to get it all done after like, 2 hours? Haha. We went to Starbucks to slack after Shujun came and had a hth talk. =] We talked for like another 2 hours then headed over to Novena for La Mei Zi(our usual dinner place). After our dinner we walked to United Square to get ice-cream and some food for Shujun’s Dad. Then we strolled back to her house and slacked there. We took sooo many photos luh, haha. >_< That’s why we missed the last bus and all of us had to cab home. Haha.

<3 you all ttm. =D

OGAYZ GOOD NIGHT!

Happy 17th Birthday to Mei Yan!

I miss seeing your kuku face during work, so come back soon! =P

Made full use of my break time today. Went to Bugis alone to have my lunch and bought xmas present for the 23rd. =D I got myself the exact same thing but in a different colour. Haha. I hope the person who gets it will make full use of it. =]

And my mum found my calculator. WOOHOO! Thank God. Now I can practice my Maths and FA. I've been looking for it for days, and she took like what, just a minute to find it? Gosh. I'm really bad at locating stuff sia. Haha. =/

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Ana Free - Holding On (Hey Yo)

Open up your eyes, it couldn't be any more obvious
Look away you made your stand and kissed me like I knew you would
You, me, late September
Driving away from here
And one more for the good times
Before we go

And hey yo, I think of it like yesterday
And hey yo, you were there, and I was certain
Hey yo, I never fell cuz you were holding on
I knew that you'd be here with me today

Speak your mind I have to know I'm everything, or just a little
Hold me where I wanna be and you wanna be too, it's better with you
You, me, at the city limits
And we can have just one more for the good times
Before we go

And hey yo, I think of it like yesterday
And hey yo, you were there, and I was certain
Hey yo, I never fell cuz you were holding on
I knew that you'd be here with me today

Yes, I'm glad we took the chance
So here's to that and this romance
Last one for the night we have to go
And if I ever fall away
You know that I'll be home someday
Wait for me, I promise I'll be there

And hey yo, I think of it like yesterday
And hey yo, you were there, and I was certain
Hey yo, I never fell cuz you were holding on
I knew that you'd be here with me today

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Okie gotta go get some sleep nao. GNASD!

I am a terrorist.

Happy 18th Birthday to Dickson! =D

It's his big day today! Haha. Hmm so this morning we went to his house and gave him a surprise! We had to do this in advance because we can't celebrate it with him on the actual day, which is like tomorrow/today. Sorry man. =/ I think he was really surprised, because we conspired with KC. She let us into his house when he was washing up. But he found us hiding in the room anyway. So yeah. Hope you like the presents! =D

So after the lil surprise, I went to meet Jerome while the rest headed over to North Point. We caught Avatar in 3D which was friggingggggggg awesome. It's 161 minutes long and so worth the money. (Y) Spilled milktea on my shirt while watching the movie. Damn kuku.. -_- But I had so much fun with KKB! Haha. Lunch and shaved ice was pretty good too. =D

Around 6pm++ we left for Lavender. He went to Golden Mile to get his camp stuff and I went for dance. And he told me he found the mosquito coil holder in 28 seconds. -_- I took damn long but still couldn't find it the other time and he took only 28 seconds? WHAT?

Dance lesson was okay. Didn't learn much today. =/ I prefer Fredy's way of teaching though. Haha. We went to have BK and our usual practice outside NLB after that. I don't know why but I was totally moodless during the practice. Hmm.





I guess that's all for today. GNASD! =D

I'm having my dinner/supper now. Dad made stewed beef. (Y)

So for Entrepreneurship today we did some accounting. I'm so glad that I actually knew what I was doing and managed to complete the worksheet. Woohoo. =D Hui Tin and I were like checking each other's answers to make sure that we were on the right track.. but guess what? Both of us made the same mistake! Haha but still, GOOD JOB to the both of us. (Y)

Poor Myzan puked in class today. Scares the crap out of us sia. Everyone was like so concerned about him luh, except this particular person who only cares about himself. Hmm. It touches me to see how united and caring E37Q is. <3

So after our lesson ended a few of us stayed behind and played games like black magic and around the world in 80 days. Lini took damn long to figure out ATWI80D. Haha damn cute. After Nat, Lini and Seanie left, Jerome and I went to eat and study for marketing. Then a random SOH senior popped out from nowhere and started talking to Jerome. Haha. I think he resembles someone.. hmm.

Oh ya and before I forget,

Happy Birthday to Darren, Eunice and Zing! =D

I shall end this abruptly. Kthxbai.

Something pretty interesting happened today. This boy called John was beaten up by a group of boys in my level. Haha. I don't know who called the police and it caused quite a commotion sia. Even the paramedics were present. =/ Feels like we're back to secondary school days where guys would fight as though it's their daily routine. Haha.

Cognitive lesson was enjoyable as usual. And Jerome gave me a guitar pick necklace! Love it ttm. Thank you awesomest. =D Stayed in class after lesson ended. Was chatting and webcamming with Louis. He was asking me about the dos and don'ts in a relationship.. haha don't think I'm of much help though. =/ Then around 5pm Jerome, Myzan, Seanie and I left the classroom and walked to W1. Jerome went to the library and the rest of us went to meet Louis and Warren. Louis called my friend kids.. WHAT!? Haha. -_- Got some stuff from Booklink and walked to CWP.

I was like dead tired on the train la and it was so crowded. I stood all the way from Woodlands to City Hall. Gosh I almost died I tell you. And I think I saw Xiu Qing. Not very sure though. Haha. Then I decided to go have donuts at Bugis. Chatted with Irene on Msn while savoring my donuts. Woot! After that I bought Mango Green Tea and walked home. Went for a hair cut.

Before -> :)
After -> :(

I guess that explains it all. Kthxbai.

I'm having ice-cream right now. Life's good. (Y)

As I strolled down Orchard Road tonight, I realized that there's a distinction with choosing to spend time alone and being lonely. Spending time alone does not necessarily means that I'm lonely. Take today for example. I had work in the morning, then lunch with my colleagues and cuzzie. After that it was alone time with my ipod. For five hours. Did some shopping and a lot of walking. It was awesome. (Y)

There were times where I was hardly ever alone, yet I felt lonely. But what I felt today was sheer bliss. Happy to be alone for a while. Not that I don't enjoy being around people. I do, at lot actually. How can we be happy if we don't interact with people, right? But we need to be alone once in a while as well. To think. To reflect. I tried to collect my thoughts. I tried to unfold all the complications of my somewhat busy and distracted life. On my own. A life in which there is no time to be alone with myself is not appealing at all.

I think we have to deal with both extremes to feel fully human and engaged. We've all been hoodwinked into thinking that when we're around people, we're not lonely.

K. Need to sleep now. GNASD.

Woah look at the time, it's 2.32am already and I'm still awake. Haha. Hmm so I just finish talking on the phone with Darren. Seems like trouble is on its way. Sigh. Not again? I just hope that our crew will stay strong. *crosses fingers*

Financial Accounting was boring as usual. Darren didn't come today but thankfully Anna was there. Shamala, Min Er and I were like damn lost. Haha. =/ Jerome was really pissed this morning and it was really scary. =O And Lulu is finally back! Missed saying Ello and Morning to him sia. Hmm so during lunch time I had chicken hor fun from Food Heaven. Note to self : never ever try that again.

Had some quality time with Irene and Dick after school ended. We went to have KFC at CWP after I completed my rj and quiz in school. Talked about some really hilarious stuff and we were laughing like nobody's business la. Didn't spend much time with them this week so I was pretty glad that we were able to catch up today. =D

HH3 was super fun! We were like jumping around la. We were perspiring like mad when class ended. Haha. Made some new friends, Sharen and Melanie. A few of them took Randell's car and the rest of us took the train to City Hall. DJ thought he left his house keys at O school so Jon accompanied him back there to search for it. The rest of us waited for them at the platform. Both of them came back after realizing that his keys was actually at home, on his bed. Kuku. -_- We had Subway for dinner! Had our usual practice at Esplanade all the way until 11pm. Talked to Jerome on the phone when I was walking home. HI. Did my laundry and I'm freaking tired now.

I shall head to bed now, gnasd! Enjoy your weekends!

I <3 my team today. Like seriously. I feel that we're really working as a team now. And I do hope that this will go on for many weeks to come. We were like so damn worried/anxious/excited about our elevator pitch and sales presentation la. Adrenaline rush kinda feeling, woohoo I like! Everyone was literally running all around before heading to the lecture room. One word to describe the situation - chaotic. Oh and before that we took some pictures in the toilet.



Can you tell what is wrong with this picture? Cheeky Hellvan actually snuck into the girl's toilet.

I had so much fun listening to other team's elevator pitch and sales presentation. Jerome's team never fails to impress. I'm glad they won, they totally deserve it. (Y) We took a class photo after 6P ended and I went to change. Walked to the MRT station with Jeslyn, Weiyun and Hellvan and I realized that Hellvan dislikes walking under the rain. Weirdo.

Fell asleep on the train and overshot. When I woke up my neck was aching. Damn kuku I tell you. -_- Went to Golden Mile to get mosquito coil and had my chiang rai laksa! WOOHOO it was so good la. I should go there more often, don't even know why I avoided going there in the first place.



To be honest, putting how I feel in words is sometimes a struggle because it doesn't seem to justify how I feel.