Look at the sky.. so damn beautiful and captivating la. I stood there for a whole 10 minutes or so just admiring it?

Okay so I just came back from work. Today's a pretty good day. Manage to wake up on time for work. =D Around 3pm I knocked off and I went to B2 to get mua chee. Walked around with the mua chee in my hands, it was so freaking good la. Then I went over to Bugis to get some snacks and I saw someone. Whenever I pass by that area I’d always wish to chance upon him, but it never happens. Thus I was really shocked when I saw him and quickly walked away so he couldn’t see me. Ha ha it was really stupid of me to do that I know, but it was the very first thing that came to my mind. I think he was with his girlfriend or something la, so hopefully he’s doing well. =D

You see, that’s why I like to think that things always happen when you least expect it. This is life, unpredictable yet wonderful at the same time. When unpredictability strikes, that’s when we start to whimper and question ourselves. But if life were to be predictable, it would cease to be life. =/

I need to go for a jog. Need to clear up my mind. I still have a business executive summary to work on. =[

FIGHTING!!!

The rest of the pictures are on facebook. =]

So yesterday a group of us went to East Coast Park to roller blade. It was pretty fun despite the bad weather. The first time it rained we took off our skates and put our stuff under Lulu's umbrella and waited. After a while, we walked over to the beach because we got a little bored. Irene and I walked over to this big rock and I stood there and thought to myself - how the heck am I supposed to get on it? Then Dick and JH came over so and they got up there so easily. I was like -_-! So yup we managed to get on it with their help and we sort of just sat there and enjoyed the view. I guessed the three of them hurt their feet while we were there. =/ Hope they're getting better..

After the rain stopped we continued skating. But then Lulu and Nicholas already left with his sister to go have lunch or something. And Sam went to the jetty to meet Alex so the rest of us made our way back to the rental station. Then it started raining again and we hid under the tree. Come to think of it, it was so freaking hilarious/dumb la. Who in the right mind would hide under a tree when it’s raining? HAHA. But yeah it was a nice experience. After making our way back we realized we still had like 10 minutes left, so we went to practice our heel brake. Irene was too tired I guess, so she waited for us at the rental station together with Doris who just arrived. After that we went to meet the rest and made our way to Bedok to have our dinner. Nicholas lost his wallet on the bus but managed to retrieve it, so woohoo! Dinner was good and all of us went home after that. Wanted to stay out a little longer but I guessed everyone was tired.. so yeah.

Talked to Awesomest on the phone for a fairly long time. Then I remembered how my friends and I used to hog the phone and talk for hours. Man I miss those times. Where are they now? =/ It was a pretty good day I’d say. But then some things happened just before I went to bed. Conflicts are arising again. Sigh. I think it's definitely better for us to talk this out - face to face. I just hope that we’ll be able to see a rainbow after this storm, just like how we did yesterday.

Pictures taken at JP. Take note of our heights.

Everyone had to be dressed in formal for Entrepreneurship today. I think the whole class looked really smart and nice. Stayed back in class after lesson ended and did my quiz. After that Jerome, Sean, Myzan and I went to have Subway and had really nice chat. Met FBFG and all of us walked to the train station together. The guys were talking about E37Q's chalet. Haha I'm a little excited about it though. =] JH and I proceeded to JP to meet Irene for her interview. It went really well and I guess she'll be starting work soon? =D Did our RJs at Mac then came back home around 10pm. Was really tired and fell asleep on the train. Woke up to find that I was (almost) lying on a man's shoulder. He's indian btw. WOOHOO!?

GNASD people. =]

Why would people feel that they are useless, or even worse, that they are a burden to others? This is something which I’ve been thinking about today I guess? I didn’t mean to make anyone feel bad. Really. I never had the intention to hurt anyone, but I guess I did? Other people might think that they are over-reacting, but do you know how bad I felt when I saw them crying? And even though they kept denying the fact that it had something to do with me/us, I knew deep inside that I WAS a part of it. Thus, I wanna take the opportunity to apologize to you guys again. Sorry for being insensitive and selfish.

I started thinking about tons of stuff after this happened, and I kept asking myself if it’s really my fault. What the heck is wrong with me? But then again, I realized it’s through experiences like this that I learn. Learn how to care for others, how to put myself in their shoes. If I were in their position, how would I feel? Now I see the whole picture. God put us through this to make us realize that every little thing that we do, DOES have an impact on others. And like they always say, bad moods are infectious. So given your intelligence you could probably guess how screwed up I must have felt. I reckon I made Irene felt really bad after that because I was totally moodless. Sorry Ajuma. =[

Stayed back in class after lesson ended. Robin’s comical dance moves managed to put a smile on everyone’s faces I guess? I was so relieved to see a smile on HT’s face la. I couldn’t stop laughing either. Haha. Watched a lil bit of HM the movie on Robin’s lappy. It reminds me of the time in Malaysia. =/ After awhile the security came in and it was time to leave so we packed up and Sherman came to my class to meet me. We waited damn long for the rest to arrive la. Sherman and I were just crapping around and we went to have our dinner when the rest came to join us.

So basically the guys were teaching me the arm wave. Mine looks really kuku compared to theirs, and they kept encouraging me to practice and etc. I will, don’t worry about it. =] Went for a toilet break and I found myself practicing infront of the mirrors, in the toilet. -_- Was totally embarrassed when a girl walked in though. Gosh. Continued practicing a little here and there and took some videos. Looks pretty good, and Mike says that we’ve come a long way since HH1. Lol. -_-

When I was on my way home, I thought about a lot of stuff. I came to a conclusion that feelings and emotions are things which I cannot comprehend. Especially feelings. They are always so damn vague. Things happen when you least expect it, I guess?
It’s 1.45am already. I should probably go to bed now. Good night world. You are so cruel.

Woah. This is like my 400th post? Woohoo? Just got done with my supper and I’m feeling a little bloated now. Before that I had my shower and did my laundry as usual. One word to describe how I’m feeling right now – tired. Like totally. So yeah this morning I managed to reach in time to walk to school together with the rest! It’s been like a week or so because I’m usually later than them. =/ Hmm saw Daren on the way so I talked to him for a little and we walked to class together.

Cognitive module was pretty.. intense. Haha. I’m pretty happy with my new team-mates, a bunch of hard-working peeps I guess? I like. =D Hmm so during first break Sam, Dick, Irene and I went to food heaven because Sam and I wanted to eat. Didn’t meet the guys for lunch because we had this compulsory talk for the SOH students. =[ Went for the talk with my classmates and we had to sit on the floor because the room was so freaking small. Sigh so I just sat down and did my ppt stuff. At the end of the talk they showed us this video telling us how a teacher changed her student’s life. I think someone cried. So sentimental. =] So yeah my group’s presentation was pretty good in my opinion. GOOD JOB GUYS! =D Hmm but on the contrary, Math UT was disastrous. I could only answer a few questions la, sigh. =/ After UT, the rest came over to my class to meet me and we walked to CWP together. Dick and I left while the rest went to complete their work and had dinner I guess?

Coincidentally, I met Jon and DJ when I alighted at City Hall. Hmm then we met Jas and she passed me my new grey pants! Woohoo! So I came back home, changed, submitted my RJ and did my quiz before going for dance. After that, Jas, Rasti and Wei Ting accompanied me to Cineleisure because I wanted to look at shoes. We went to Leftfood but there wasn’t anything attractive. So we went over to Heeren instead and I got a pair of woman nike dunk high in gold! Woohoo! Rasti was like telling me the silver one looks nicer, but I prefer the gold one so yeah. =P Thanks for accompanying me and giving me your opinion guys! =D

By then it was already 9plus, so we went back to Bugis to meet the rest. While we were getting bubble tea from Rockery(which sucked btw), they called and told us that they got chased out by the security guard, so we met them at NLB instead. I heard from Darren that while they were practicing in Iluma, some malay guys came to disturb and were like looking for trouble. Sigh, teenagers these days have nothing better to do eh? -_- Saw zhisheng riding past (if I’m not wrong) but didn’t have the chance to say hi. I reckon I wouldn’t either. Hmm. So yeah after that we walked over to Esplanade. You know this place, where all the dancers practice? Yeah we went there but it was stuffy as hell. >_< When we reached that place right, we saw this group of malay boys standing in line and policemen were like talking to them. I guess they were probably caught skateboarding there, goons. We didn’t really practice much because we were just fooling around. Videos and pictures are with Jamie I guess? Hmm yep then around 11plus we left. All of them took the train and I decided to walk home from there. It started drizzling, and yah you can imagine luh. That feeling.. awesomeness. Teehee! =D

Saturday. It’s just another day at work for me. During break-time I met up with my dance clique and we went to Far East Plaza. Had Subway for lunch and we headed to this particular shop selling hip hop stuff. I got myself a DBD t-shirt and the rest got themselves some stuff too. I had to rush back to work afterwards, sigh. I was like so dead after work ended la. It was freaking tiring and there were like so many customers.. gosh. Drank some umeshu and apple juice.

Isn’t it amazing how a simple bus-ride back home can make you think so much? It’s as though the possibilities are endless? Today I decided to take the bus back home after my work for a change. I’ve always loved taking the bus. When I look through the thick glass panel that seems to separate myself from the outside world, I felt surprisingly calm. And it took unusually long for me to get home due to the traffic jam. Good for me then, more time to think and reflect.

It scares me how everyone seems to look so different on the exterior, but deep inside, they are all the same. We really shouldn’t judge someone just by their looks. But sadly, this is not possible. I feel like a hypocrite as I type this, because I have to admit, I do judge people at times. But every day is a lesson for me. We meet new people, thinking that we know them but in fact, we know nothing about them. Beauty catches the eye but personality captures the heart. So true. At least for me that is, because I’m not superficial like you.

Woohoo I’m dead tired now, just finished showering and doing my laundry. So I’m just gonna blog about today briefly. =] This morning I woke up around 7am, then I was like ‘Urgh I’m late again!’. I took my own sweet time to prepare and managed to reach class about 9am or so. When I was about to sit down after coming into the classroom, I saw my usual breakfast (consisting of milk and vanilla roll)on the table. Thank you so much! An eye for an eye, aye? =D So yeah.. my day started off really well.

Today we had this relief faci and I swear he’s super hilarious. I like the way he conducts his lesson, he’ll say the weirdest thing at the weirdest time. Haha! Hmm and I think he’s really sensitive.. lol. When we were walking back to our blocks after lunch, something happened and I got kinda upset. Dick, can you stop stepping on my slipper/shoe? Be it intentionally or unintentionally. I BEG OF YOU AH! Haha. >_< And just now Lulu asked me why I was emo-ing.. I wasn’t okay! Sorry I didn’t answer you when you said goodbye this afternoon! Didn’t mean to do that to you.. sorry k? =[

We had this mini celebration for Michelle cuz it’s her birthday today (7 Nov). Yeah and birthday girl cried.. silly girl. Lol. Yup then had our usual ppt presentation and etc. We took a few class photos after the end of the lesson, woot? Then I finished my RJ and stuff in class before heading to Irene’s classroom. When I was packing up I mixed up Nat’s charger with mine, and I didn’t know which was mine. Lol damn kuku. -_- Kk so we walked to CWP and decided to have Mac, like AGAIN! Part of the reason why is because I was in a rush la. =/ Irene helped me to order my stuff and I went to dickson. LOL! Saw Syaheerah there with her friends and said hi to her! I miss her comfy shoulders.. haha! =D Submitted our RJs and talked. Then Irene was like ‘Eh you’re going to be late eh’.. I looked at the time and it was already close to 6pm. I was like oh crap.. so we rushed the MRT station.. lol. Talked a lot on the train. Mostly about negative stuff. Don’t think too much k? Whatever’s meant to be, will work out perfectly. =] Yup.

Rushed back home to change and went for dance lesson. Fredy was our instructor for today(yesterday)! =D Head isolation and arm wave.. haha I’m so gonna have to practice hard. =/ Hmm then after our lesson we went to have our dinner and practice as usual. Talked to Jon for a little.. he’s one crazy and funny guy! Hmm then I came back home after that.. had yogurt on my way home as usual. =D

I believe everything happens for a reason. I shall leave everything to fate! =D Good night everyone!

Dear diary, today I feel really.. weird. Marketing UT1 wasn't very good and I didn't manage to complete all the questions. Sigh, who can I blame except myself? Procrastinating is my forte man. =/ That aside, I've been feeling rather moody these days. I want to apologize to my friends who had to take all my crap.. I'm really sorry. =[ I didn't mean to make you all of you feel as though you owe me anything or whatsoever, it's just that there are many things that are going through my mind. I promise I won't emo anymore k? (or at least try to.. haha.)

So after my UT I went to meet Irene and Dick as usual. I felt totally crappy and gloomy after my UT la.. 8 marks gone just like that. Argh. Went to Lulu's class and we were told that we're leaving for CWP. So yeah we went to Woodland's Library to finish our RJ. I was sitting alone.. just wanted some space alone then Doris decided to sit next to me out of all places. So I was like urgh and I hoped that I would at least have some peace. Guess what? She started asking me questions like "Guess what I'm drawing?". I was like totally sian-ed.. a little irritated to be exact. Then I said something like "Can you stop talking to me?". I guessed my words did hurt her in a way or another.. I'm sorry. But I can't help it. Sigh. =/ Thought about a lot of things when I was sitting there alone, but I did not come up with a conclusion.. sigh. Someone save me please? =[

After that we went to have our dinner at the foodcourt in CWP. Doris and Lulu left btw. So yeah. Irene and I had hokkien mee, it was nice! Cept that it has already turned cold by the time the guys came back. But whatever it still taste really good! We walked around CWP.. went to get my earpiece! =D Kk then after that we went to Mac to have ice-cream! Sat down and played Truth or Dare, it was fun! They asked really tough questions la.. sigh. I wish I knew the answer. =[Headed back home around 10.30pm if I'm not wrong. Talked to Dick on the train.. I think he sort of knows how I feel. I know you'll be reading this Dick, so thank you. =]

I'm going to bed now. Nights.

The little things you do to me are taking me over, do you know that? =/

Sunday

Went jogging with Irene, JH and Malcolm! Met Irene after my work ended. I was talking on the phone with Jasmine when I was on my way to Commonwealth to meet Irene. We talked for like an hour la, and I’m glad that she told me some stuff.. So after meeting up with Irene and Malcolm, we went to Kou Fu to have our lunch. I had duck rice, Irene had fishball noodles and Malcolm bought a carton of milk and a packet of chocolate! After we’re done we made our way to Lakeside to meet JH. He was supposed to await our arrival at the MRT station but he was late! So we just walked to his house and met him halfway.. Lol!

We went up to his house to put our stuff.. then we were all like ahh so tired.. so we used for his lappy for a while. Looked at some blogs then we went to change and off we go! Irene started feeling unwell after awhile because her heart was beating super duper fast. =[ So she stopped and walked.. the rest of us continued jogging. After a while I got tired so I stopped.. actually I wasn’t really tired.. I just felt like stopping because there wasn’t any motivation. =[ Sometimes when I jog I tend to picture someone or something in-front me us.. okay LAME I know! XD

So Irene and I walked over to the playground area and I went to play on the swing! Woohoo it was so fun la. JH and Malcolm came over after their additional round then I asked JH to push me because I couldn’t move. Haha so fun la! I wish the rest were there.. =/ Hmm anyways this little boy was playing the swing alone, so I talked to him.. cheeky lil boy. Haha! Then I was like sitting right in-front of him and he stuck his tongue out at me, so I stuck out my tongue as well. LOL! Super adorable.. Then we talked to him for a bit then his parents came over.. his name is actually Guang Hong.. he is 9 years-old. =D We moved on to the See-Saw then I was sitting on one end.. Guang Hong and his lil sister was sitting at the other end. I was like playing with them la.. they looked so happy.. haha. =] After a while they left then we went to look for the guys.. they were like jumping on the trampoline like thingy.. so kuku.. but we went to join them still. XD Jumped like some crazy lil kids.. -_- then we climbed up the pyramid thingy. Sat up there and talked.. talked about Irene and JH’s problem.. yup.

Mal was like saying “..let the Moon be our witness” or something like that. Damn funny.. I kept probing them to tell each other what’s wrong but it was like bleh. Haha so I told him “We’re at the right place at the time with the right person , now we’ll just have to for them to say the right thing..” Haha. Okay then we just went back to JH’s house for dinner. We were watching 不能說的秘密 at the same time. Bought back some old memories.. =/ They starting asking really lame questions like what are you gonna do if your crush tells you that he/she likes you. >_< Headed back home after our dinner around 10.30pm.. that’s it! =]

Question Yourself

WHOEVER READS THIS MUST ANSWER AND DO IT TRUTHFULLY!!
IF NOT UR NIGHTMARE WILL EAT YOU!!

1. What is your favourite food?
- Chocolate and ice-cream!

2. What is your most hated food?
- Don’t really have one..

3. What is your favourite colour?
- Blue and Brown..

4. What's your favourite hobby?
- Day-dreaming. HAHA hmm reading, dancing, sports, watching movies etc.

5. What do you hate most?
- INSECTS!

6. What’s troubling you now?
- Some stuff.. which I can’t tell you. Only bestie knows..

7. What's your ideal partner?
- Caring, knows how to take care of me and most importantly, love me for who I am..

8. What would you name your daughter?
- I kinda like Olivia.. or Georgia.. Taylor’s not that bad either.. XD

9. What would you name your son?
- Jordan or Lucas sounds nice..

10. Is there someone you like now?
- Hmm..

11. Who are you thinking of right now?
- Someone..

12. What if your best friend wanted to invade a country and asks you to join him/her in their conquest for world domination?
- I’d be right behind her! =D

13. What if you figured someone that you like has a crush on you?
- Hmm.. I dunno..

14. How would you describe yourself?
- Always the one that gets people talking. Gregarious in a way I guess? I like to be around my friends..

15. Left or right?
- Right!

16. Commitments?
- Currently? My friends and people whom I care about, school and dance..

17. What's the ideal height for your partner?
- Taller than me =]

18. What is your ideal age for your partner?
- Preferably someone older or about the same age.. can take care of me. =P

19. What would you sacrifice for your partner?
- My ipod? Haha JOKING! I’m willing to give up on anything/everything if he wants me to..

20. What's your religion?
- My parents are buddhists..

21. Have you ever hugged anyone?
- Yes

22. Have you ever kissed anyone?
- Yes

23. Have you ever held anyone's hand?
- Yes.. I still remember the first time I held hands with this friend in p1 during the “buddy period”.. omg >_<

24. Name 10 people you are thinking about?
- Bestie, Lulu, Irene, Malcolm, JH, Jasmine, Pamela and someone.. ( some of them because I just saw them today) I know there’s only 8 ahaha

25. Name 5 people that just talked to you
- Lulu, Malcolm, Irene, JH and Jasmine

26. Are you stressed?
- Not really.. but kinda..

27. What do you hope to be in the future?
- A good wife/mum/daughter/friend etc..

28. Have any good friends?
- Yup! Plenty.. Bestie, Shujun, Zishan, Ziling, Nok, Jodi, Lulu, Irene, Jenn, Sam, Dick, Malcolm, JH, Jasmine, Pam, Meiyan..

29. Made out in a lift before?
- No

30. Have you ever jumped off a cliff?
- Sadly, nope..

31. Skydiving or bungee jumping?
- Both! Sounds fun..

32. Name 5 qualities you want your partner to have
- Caring, loving, humorous, sweet and truthful..

33. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
- Maybe..

34. Have you ever felt that your heart was torn into pieces?
- Yes..

35. Favourite time you ever had..
- Too many to mention..

36. Greatest dream you ever had
- Being together with that special someone? It was so long ago..

37. Who do you think of everyday?
- Hmm..

38. What do you do when you are upset?
- I’ll keep quiet.. but it gets kinda obvious.. I wear my heart on my sleeve sometimes.. so it’s easy to tell when I’m upset..

39. When was the last time I cried?
- Last month..

40. Favourite song/band?
- Favourite song (Currently) Justin Bieber’s cover of So Sick!!! Favourite band.. tons of them..

41. Books or activities?
- Both.. but please don’t hand me a dictionary.. I’ll faint..

42. Where would you take your first date to?
- My dream first date would be at the beach.. lol.. or just anywhere where we can sit down and talk..

43. What is something that you want your partner to have/ to do?
- Have faith in us and always love me.. lol..

44. Write 5 things you want to someone / say.
- What are you thinking?
- I’m sleepy and I need to get some sleep.
- UT1 is around the corner but I’ve not started my revision yet.(so dead..)
- What should I do?
- I love you?

45. What's your CCA?
- Track and Choir in Primary School, Golf in Secondary School. No IG for now. =[

46. What's the scariest thing that you've experienced?
- Hmm.. heartaches? HAHA I don’t know..

47. Who do you have a crush on now?
- Hmm..

48. What is your most hated genre (movie/books)?
- No preference..

49. List 5 things that's going through your mind 5 minutes ago.
- Fats because I just ate a bar of Cadburry, not getting enough sleep, UT1, what’s the time now and how I should answer this question..

50. 10 things you would like your partner to have/be
- Caring, trust-worthy, great sense of humour, sporty, taller than me, cute, smarter than me, someone who can come up with something witty, faithful and understanding..