Oh man, I still can't believe that 2010 is ending SO SOON! Tomorrow will be the last day of 2010 but I'm actually kinda looking forward to it because I'll be spending it with Jerome. :)

But I have one question.. where has the time gone? This year seems to pass by so quickly I don't even have the time to sit down and think about all that has happened. :/ So let's do a summary for 2010 shall we?

Personally, I think it's a well, pretty good year for me despite having troughs here and there. For the first time in my life, I experienced the pain of a close family member's death. The last time someone passed away in my family was like almost 10 years ago? It was my Grandma and I guess I was too young to understand anything. It has been 5 months since my Aunt passed on but I still think about her every now and then. Then again, I know she's at a better place now. :)

Relationship wise, I've also grown a lot. I realized that there are some friendships that are not worth hanging onto and I should just let it go. No point struggling to maintain a relationship when the other party obviously don't give a damn about it. It has to be mutual. You have to give and take. But having said that, there are also people whom I wanna cherish even more because of this. Thank you all for being a part of my life. :)

I have so many things to be thankful for but I don't know where to start. I just wanna say that I'm thankful for whatever that has happened in 2010 and I can't wait to see what 2011 has in store for me! I love each and everyone of you, especially you! :)

Enjoy the last few moments of 2010 with your loved ones!

Xmas is officially over but I had a great one though. Spent my morning/afternoon blading in East Coast Park with Jerome. We got our Koi and he did some last minute Xmas shopping. :)

Then in the evening, I met the girls and we went to have Korean buffet in Katong. We caught a midnight movie - Gulliver Travels. (which was horrible in my opinion, lame storyline which makes no sense haha) And thank you Shu Jun for the macaroons and Zi Ling for the cookies! I will always remember how we got stuck in the rain together on Xmas! Haha. :)

Oh and xmas countdown this year is madness. Everyone was like armed with xmas spray cans and declaring war with total strangers. Honestly speaking, I still prefer last year's countdown because it was less.. crowded? I don't know, the feeling is just a little bit different. Nonetheless it was still very fun. :)

Can't believe it's been a year since the declaration. Feels like yesterday to me. :)

LOVE today's SQPE lesson because we had a field trip. It feels good to not have to rely on your laptop once in a while. Class bonding session was a success. I'm starting to love this class. (Y) We went bowling together after our lesson and then headed to Tangs to shop! Got a pair of cheap fcuk jeans and I'm damn happy. :) Met up with Jerome after that and we had mos burger for dinner, followed by Narnia! Thanks for rushing your work. :)

Stop trying to impress and be yourself for once. People will love you for that.

Dinner at nyny with hy on Thursday! Had a great time catching up as usual. We need to meet up again soon and get our koi! :) It's really nice to have someone to talk to and they understand exactly how you feel. Less than three!

Darren's 21st birthday on Friday! Can't really see my face here but it was so much fun! Nothing fanciful, just a simple birthday celebration at home. Simple things like just sitting around talking can be really fun too. :)

& thank you Jas and Mike for walking me home! :D A guy should never let a girl walk alone in the middle of the night. Especially in the slashing zone. Ha.

Can't wait for xmas! All the xmas lights is making me excited! :)

Sometimes no matter how hard you try, things just don't seem to go your way. So many decisions to make and I don't even know if I'm making the right ones. For now I'm just trying to make the best out of everything. I guess.

Andrea and Alvin's ROM on the 28th of November 2010! I had so much fun on the yacht that day! Still can't believe that our lame Andrea is now someone else's wife. Mrs Lee sia. Haha. Thanks for inviting us and I sincerely hope that they'll have a blissful marriage and cherish each other. :)

With the bride! It's no wonder people say women will look their best on their wedding day. It's true.

:)

David Archuleta Singapore Showcase at Zouk was awesomeee! Rashey went to queue early in the morning and we were like the first in line lah. That fan girl. (Y) Haha. I went to TPY to meet Shujun and Calvin for Koi and at the same time, to collect the dslr before the showcase. But the security said that the dslr was 'too professional' because the lens was too huge so I had to leave it with them. :( Then when we got inside so many people had their dslr with them lah, super unfair! So I had to make do with my lousy Samsung phone and I managed to video his performances down, but the sound quality is like bleh. -_- Oh well.

After the showcase ended, we cabbed to Ritz Carlton wanting to get a picture and guess what? Their bus was just right infront of ours when we got to the hotel! I was telling Rashey 'eh cannot be lah where got so lucky one' and when we got down we were like AHHHHHHH! Haha. Epic moment. We didn't get any picture in the end though because the security were like rushing him and I guess he was tired too. But Rashey managed to get his autograph and took a picture with Alfredo(david's guitarist) though, that lucky beech. (Y)

So after that Rashey was still not satisfied so we waited outside the entrance. Then she saw David walk passed again and we ran in! Melinda(david's manager) gestured no to us but Rashey being the persistent stalker that she is, insisted that we should follow them. And we did but we lost them in Marina Square. We walked around the mall and Esplanade in search for him but it was a futile attempt lah, so we decided to go home. And that's it, my very first stalking experience. :/

Almost a month since I last updated this space huh. School has been pretty good and I'm thankful. I feel that no matter which class I end up in, I am able to blend in. Phew. Some days I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world, some days I don't. Ha.

Taylor Swift and David Archuleta's new albums are like the only thing I've been listening to for the past week or so lah. Soo soothing and it makes me wanna pick up my guitar and play it all day long. Haha. But I still suck at it. -_- I just tuned my guitar today though, with the help of Louis. Thanks bgf. :)

So on Wednesday, Jerome, Rashey, Seanie, Myzan, Lini and I caught Paranormal activity 2! It wasn't as scary as I thought it'd be though. Phew. Haha. Myzan was like covering his eyes with the popcorn lah, super hilarious. And to Jerome, I know you're not a fan of horror movies but you still made the effort to watch it with us/me. I am well aware of that lah, you the best! <3

Anyway, this book that I've been reading recently(The pilot's wife) made me think about something. Can you ever really know someone? We always think that we know everything, but the truth is, we only know so much. I believe that the best way to know a person, to uncover hidden facets, is to talk to them. So, start talking to people you care about. :)

Okay I need to go study for my Business Stats asap. But first, DINNER TIME. Kthxbai.


Steamboat/koi/lepak with e44r on the 22nd of oct! <3


:D

Year 2 semester 2 is gonna start tomorrow! Oh how time flies. :( This holiday has definitely been an eventful one because I managed to spend time with a lot of people. Kinda. Haha.


Pulau ubin camp! It was awesome btw.


With Pam!


Sherman's 21st!


Picnic on Amanda's bday!


;)


Roses from Jerome! :)

Can't wait to see my friends in school tomorrow. May this new semester be an awesome one. :)

It's October already! All I can say is wow. Anyway, a lot of things happened since I last updated. Some recent pictures.





Marina Barrage with the gang on the 23rd of Sept. It was an outing cum celebration for JH's 18th birthday. Sorta. Haha. Had sooo much fun that day! Just like the good ol' days. :)


RP mates and me looking like a grandma. Haha.

Staff for Singtel suite plus two extras. -_-

F1 event. Tiring as hell but it was worth it. It didn't start off very well for me on the first day but it got so much better over the next two days. Somehow I just knew it will. Haha. So thankful for the many new friendships and of course the old ones lah. Thanks Sam for doing my hair like everyday. Thanks Yen and Wan Ting for drawing my eyes. Haha. I love my friends. ;)



I have no idea why this photo just can't be rotated. Haha. So on the 28th, I met up with Seanie at Redhill and we went to Kaysiang road to collect our CEP shirts. Wasn't as nice as we thought it'd be but yeah. Haha. Then off we go to the airport to pick up some very important people! :D We had so much fun running here and there lah! We were at terminal 3 when we realized that the guys were at terminal 2. Super hilarious! By the way, I'm so proud of Seanie that he finally made a good decision that day. ;)





On the 29th I met up with my girls. Notice how I call them 'my girls'. ;) Haha. I think the picture above illustrates us perfectly. Zl and Zs stoning. Me looking spastic. Shujun being the ah lian that she is. Jodi who is always so demure. Andrea being retarded as usual. Wow. Anyways, we caught Resident's evil afterlife and had sake buffet. :) Met Desiree and she was really nice!

Unfortunately, I fell sick that very night. :(

So there goes my Thursday with kkb. We intended to spend the whole day outside but in the end he had to take care of me. Sorry. :( Worst day of my life sia. Never felt so sick in my entire 18 years of life. :/ I shall declare that I love my boyfriend! Because of him, the worst day of my life doesn't seem that bad afterall. :)





And yesterday we hung out with Irene at Mindscafe. Had a really hard time finding it lah and I was sweating like a pig by the time I met them. Haha. And the food was bleh. :/ But thankfully I had great company. :) We headed to the library after that and had our dinner at the hawker centre. Love the china talk at the hawker centre. Part 2 soon okay? :)

Oh and happy 7th! ;)

Okay that's about it. Kthxbai!

I miss mkkbf already and it's only the first day. :(

Fortunately I have things to keep myself busy with.
- Work tonight.
- Marina barrage with the gang tomorrow! (can't wait!)
- F1 on Fri, Sat and Sun. (woohoo $_$)
- Work on Mon night.
- Dance on Tues night.

I need to:
- Spend more time with my guitar. Have been neglecting her since god knows when. :(
- Meet up with some of my friends ASAP. <3
- Start thinking.

Thankful that I have something to look forward to every night. ;)

Regrets. We all have it in our life. Have you ever regretted not studying hard enough for an important exam or not saying things that needed to be said? Yep that's what I mean.

As we grow older, we find that the only things we regret are the things we didn't do, and not the things that we did. Because things that we regret doing are usually the ones that taught us a valuable lesson. Those are the things that have helped to build our character and molded us to who we are today. However, brooding over things that you didn't do will only make you think of all the 'what-ifs'. All the different possibilities of how things could have turned out if you did something about it. Those things are probably not going to happen because you've already lost your chance.

I regret sleeping late last night because now I have two more pimples on my face. I regret not waking up earlier so I can have more time to get ready. I regret not leaving the house earlier so I wouldn't have missed my bus. I regret not charging my phone last night because now it's dead. I regret not packing my bag because now I can't seem to find my keys. These are the minor regrets that we have in our every day life, isn't it? But we seem to be able to get over it so easily.

I'm not perfect either. I have things in my life I wish I didn't do, because it seems to give people the wrong impression of who I really am. One of them is stealing. It was all in the name of fun back then in primary school but I don't see how "fun" it is now. Haha. I guess when you're young you do stupid things without considering the consequences. But hey, that experience taught me integrity. I also regret not spending enough time and staying in contact with people that I love. But that also showed me how important they were to me and I should cherish whatever I have now.

I think we should all get over our regrets and look that the opportunities that we have instead. Haha. I don't regret not studying hard enough for my O levels, because I got into RP and have met so many awesome people since then.

When one door closes, another door opens. But we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

See what I mean? :)

August's coming to an end soon, and I've quite a few things that I wish to blog about. I think.

First of all, YOG's officially over! (Y) I didn't regret signing up for this event even though we had to go through quite a number of "training sessions". It was all worth it I guess? Made quite a number of new friends and saw some familiar faces in the YOV during my duties. :)













I'll definitely remember the day Wan Ting and I had to dress up in this ridiculous fruity costume. Wan Ting, you owe me one sia. Haha.

Oh and I'm so happy for Shu Jun! Congrats bff! ;)

I've also started dancing again. Jas, Lini and I signed up for girl's hip hop at danzpeople and the first lesson was pretty good. Looking forward to spending more time with the girls. :)

I've been spending a lot of time with kkb recently. Very thankful for that. :) We caught like 3 movies in total this week. Step up 3d, she's out of my league(on my laptop) and grown ups. Grown ups is freaking awesome btw! Oh and something worth mentioning, we conquered Bukit Timah Hill on Thursday! Haha okay lah it might be nothing but it's a good start, no? :)



"When the final buzz of life goes by, you should have no regrets."

Saw this exhibition at the National Museum last Monday during the HTM field trip. One word - amazing.

"This is a reminder to people: humanity is easily blinded by a kind of collective mentality and action, and is destined to repeat such error to an almost unbelievable degree. The crux of this installation lies just before the glass wall, as the artist reminds people: invisible walls are the hardest to dismantle."

Chinese heritage food trail was awesome.

And sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I had a choice to decide if I want a Dad in my life. Because I don't feel like I have one. Shitty feeling.

Hi there. I decided to update this space with more adorable pictures of Mabel before I head to bed. Oh and to finish up the sales competition crap. A few more sentences and I'll be done! Woot.

Anyway, I went to TPY today after school to meet my cuzzie and we had our dinner at Pizza Hut. The prawn aglio olio there is pretty good ah. (Y) Walking around TPY brought back tons of memories. Haha.

Oh and it's my microeconomics faci's last day today. When she broke the news I was like HUH. She's a really nice faci in my opinion lah, she even got us brownies on her last day. :( Sometimes I wonder why some people can be so unappreciative and disrespectful. :/

Something I learned today. Assumption is really the mother of all screw-ups.

Night.

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea


While waiting for our very important president. <3 this two beeches.

Just this morning, I flared up twice. The source of my anger? Boys. Not what you're thinking. I'm just losing my patience. Is it true that some boys are really insensitive or maybe it's just me being overly sensitive? Probably the latter. Haha. :/ I get pissed off at the slightest things, even a drop in the bucket will trigger my anger lah I tell you. Just when I thought I had it all under control it starts to fall apart again. When I'm upset, people around me suffer. And I feel really guilty after that. Vicious cycle ah. I need to start learning how to manage my temper all over again. :/

Furthermore, some people are just not worth my anger. So why waste my time on things/people that don't even deserve my attention? Haha. But still. Easier said than done. Nonetheless, I'm gonna try. To make myself less pathetic and people around me happier. I hope.

Before I end off, here's a picture of my favourite faci and the girls in my class taken last Friday during the Adidas sales competition.



Night.

"I don't know" or "nothing" - the impulsive reaction of a lot of people. When someone asks me if something is wrong, my instinctual response is to say "nothing". It's not always true. And sometimes, it could not be further from the truth. But it's a good way to shut people up out/up, though.

I think people do this for many reasons. They do it because they think that talking to someone about something that is weighing on their mind is an admission to themselves. And they don't want that. Because they don't want to be seen as a wimp . Or sometimes, they're just scared that it will hurt more to talk about than it already does to not talk about.

In reality, saying “nothing” is unfair to those who care for you. I mean, people around you will be able to tell when something is not quite right. And when they ask if something’s wrong, saying “nothing” might probably shut them up, but it does not allay their worries. It will only make it worse.

Honestly speaking, I think they are just presenting themselves as a sounding board for you to let out your issue, and not to find solutions for it. But it’s not intrusive lah don’t get me wrong. So please guys, next time somebody notices that you’re acting weird and is sincerely concern about you, don’t shut them out. Share your problems with them. Even if it gets nowhere, at least you know that they’re there for you.

Hey. Can you believe it's July already? Why is time passing by so quickly? Sometimes I wish it would slow down so that I can take time to enjoy the little things in my life. And I've been really bad at updating lately. :/ But I want to keep this space alive, because it'll be a waste if I stop writing here. I wouldn't be able to see how much I've grown. But having said that, I'm always procrastinating. Sometimes I have the urge to update, but I tell myself that I'll do it "later". And that "later" never really happens. Haha. Now that I'm doing it finally, I can't think of anything to write. The irony. :/

I shall update on what I've been doing for the past 2 weeks. Last Monday my class had a field trip to Hilton Hotel. It was a good experience and I'm thankful for such an awesome bunch of classmates. I think I'm starting to feel attached to them already. Seeing them in class always make me feel so.. comfortable. :)

We also celebrated Irene's 20th birthday on the 29th of June. It was just a simple dinner at Pastamania and we had Ben and Jerry's after that. Hope she likes the bag. :) It has been awhile since we last hung out together, but whenever we get together it feels like we're going back in time. Everything just feels so.. familiar. Well, almost.

Anyway, kkb and I caught 3 movies for the past 2 weeks. Letters to Juliet, Eclipse and Despicable Me. Omg I love Despicable Me!!! The minions are so freaking cute. Haha. (Y) Oh and kkb got me "choco"! An ipod classic! I love it so much. I really didn't expect that. It just goes to show how lucky and blessed I am. I have awesome people in my life. Thank you kkb for being a part of it. A big part. :)

I need to go get ready for work now. I'll be meeting Jas and Rasti later on after work and we're gonna go meet the rest at Expo for THE BIG GROOVE! Hope it'll be fun. :)

A Better Place

She's in a better place right now
Than she's ever been before;
All pain is gone; she's now at rest;
Nothing troubles her anymore.

It's we who feel the burden of
Our sadness and our grief;
We have to cry, to mourn our loss,
Before we get relief.

We know we'll reconnect with her
At the end of each life's road;
We'll see her cherished face again
When we release our earthly load.

- Joanna Fuchs

I miss you. I hope you're at a better place now. :(

Thoughts. Or rants.

Does being older gives one the authority to disregard the younger ones? I mean, so what if you're older? Does that necessarily means that you're the "wiser" one? Today I experienced something that made me think. A lot.

When I doing was some team building activities with my student during ALC today, I tried to make it clear to them the rules of the game when I saw them making mistakes. And to my surprise, one, or maybe two students told me to shut up. And gave me the shut-the-eff-up-you-know-nothing kind of attitude. I was dumbfounded. So I kept quiet but a gazillion thoughts were already running through my mind. Did I do something wrong? Was it something I said?

"Sticks and stones make break my bones, but words will never hurt me." My foot. I have to admit it was more of a shocking, rather than hurtful comment. Those girls who told me to shut up were girls that were older than me, erm, so yeah. Come to think of it now, it actually made sense. I'm assuming the older ones do not like to be told what to do by the younger ones. I know assumption is the mother of all screw-ups lah, but I'm gonna assume anyway.

I think it's tiring having to go back to school during the holidays, especially on a Saturday. You think we don't feel the same way? I know you guys have "better things to do", like texting your friends or go shopping, ha. I know the weather is unbearable, but it does not explain for your crankiness. You think you're the only that's "suffering"? Think again.

I think it's really selfish of someone to just think from their own perspective. Everything have to be about me, me and me. Like, why am I doing this when I could be sleeping in on a Saturday? Why is this stupid school doing this to me? Why are we playing these stupid games, which is messing up my hair? I despise people who thinks that everything has to be about them, and if it doesn't go their way, it's lame and stupid. Open up your eyes, you're the dumb and oblivious one.

And it really saddens me to see students leaving halfway through the activities. Especially when they come up with lame excuses. It's okay for me if you can't acknowledge the effort that others put in, but leaving halfway because you're bored is just so irresponsible.

I can go on and on about this but I reckon I should stop here. On a lighter note, I had Jared as my partner and he was really nice lah. So yeah. Stupid tudung girl forgot about the whole event. Goon ttm. *facepalm

I shall end this abruptly. Kthxbai.

I think my new blog template looks purty. And kkb is back from camp. So here's a smiley. :)


^^ can you spot the rainbow?

This was taken last Friday when we went to ECP to blade. It was a lovely day. Good weather, good company. Except Rashey's constant shrieks. HEHE.


^^ with minah of the day.


^^ with additional tudung girl.


^^ tuna sandwich that Lini made.


^^ our little taste of heaven.


^^ kids.

First thing I heard when I came back home from work today was that mom fell sick. So I had to mop the floor and do the laundry. It's definitely not easy being a mom. I hope she feels better soon. Kkb too.